Remembering my late beloved mother...14th-16th May 2014

14th May 2015 Thursday

 14th May 2014  !
That was the last day that l was accompanying and be the care taker of my late mother at her house.(day time)..(note: l helped my 2nd brother to share the duty of taking care of her..be it at their house or at the ward..the many times she had been admitted to hospital.)

 The task of talking to her,bathing her,seeing her take her own meals,taking naps,holding her hands,giving her a bit of massage , etc etc was getting easier..l felt quite relieved then..And l told myself l would spend more time with her from then on...

In the night at 10.30 pm, l was told she was sent to emergency ward because she had difficulty in breathing...She was in a hysterical state then,restless, sweating...I regretted l went to check on her too late...1.00 am...I managed to calm her by talking n giving her moral support...Yes,soon she fell into sound sleep...So, my brother and sister in law( thanks to both of them) were taking care of her till the the morning of 15th May...she was admitted to 3rd Ward...I took over the duty to accompany her till evening when she started to show restlessness again...Dr Phang,a young lady doctor ,new to us,never understand my mother's cases..and giving her no chance to try calm down..(It was  too bad and unlucky really to be this Doc's patient). This Doc insisted my mother should go into ICU !! My mother was still shouting why she was being pressed down for the jabs etc ! She was panic we knew,wanted us to stop them...Oh God...it was the most painful moment for us the son n daughter to make the decision and to hear her shouting behind the curtains! very inhuman ! We had no power to do anything though l knew this was not the proper process in forcing a patient who was still conscious ,only restless, to be admitted to ICU !

My heart is still painful when l recall this episode on this day..15th May 2014 
I managed to see her at 7 pm - 8 pm the same night...semi conscious..I only talked to her in my heart,touched her arm...Because l didn't want to disturb her semi conscious mind...
Coincidentally, 15th May 2014 was my late mother's Birthday ! We were too busy and panic on her sudden illness that all of us forgot about this special day ! But the good n observant lady Dr in ICU always talking to her WISHED her Happy Birthday instead...

16th May 2014 Saturday morning 
My brother who loved my late mother the most managed to talk to her the next morning..My brother knew she could feel his touch on her hand n arm but could not move. She sure could hear him talking to her.....1 hour after he left , the very gentle Doc called my brother to announce her passing away at 9.20 am ! What a shock to hear the news !
Mother ! we all love u so much ! R.I.P